Let me be

“CDO,” you say, joking

If you call it that,

You don’t know what it’s like

At least not for me

You might think you’re funny

But whenever you say “CDO”

It feels like a slap –

feels like you think

I’m being irrational or unreasonable

or making it up

my OCD might be irrational

it might be unreasonable

but I can assure you

I’m not making it up

I know you say it “doesn’t matter”

But if it doesn’t matter to the system

or to you

but it does to me

Just let me format it the way I like

You don’t have to understand

But if it doesn’t change the meaning

If it doesn’t get in the way

Just let me be