Left Alone but Not For Long

Yes, I chose this state of being

I can't blame others for not coming around me.

When I had the chance, I took it for granted.

No time cause I had to clean

Too tired to hang out - just too late for me?

What about the energy? - I didn’t want to feel or set free.

All the reasons to keep me inside

All the reasons to keep me from coming out at night.

Just no good reasons to make a deeper connection.

Fast forward in time

Not a soul to be found in sight, Not anyone I feel I can call on tonight

Sure I meet others along the way

By not nourishing them, let them go astray.

I'm sure there are a few that remember me

And maybe believe in me, -

I didn't believe in me, you see.

Kept my distance,

Built a wall of steel,

Used the key of shame to keep it safe.

Called it protecting myself? instead I abandoned - my myself.

I don’t want to be the old lady watching a cat chase a few mice around

I don’t want to lose a sense of community

or have to think I can’t call or visit in town.

I don’t want to feel like its just me

I think it’s time to leave lonely at the house.

And get out and fulfill some needs.

TammyRenee