Leaving Oblivion
Screw this. I'm leaving. Life will not keep me down.
I feel as though I am lost in this dark oblivion
I am trying to just find my purpose in life…
Because I know life does have purpose
And meaning.
I know it does.
But,
I’ve let these setbacks,
The big,
And small,
Nudge me into this dark oblivion
Where I feel safe and in danger at the same time…
It’s almost as if…
After all the crying
And grieving
That everything is at a stand still.
And my heart
Is waiting
For me to
Make a choice.
To stay in this dark, stagnant, oblivion
Or to leave.
I’m afraid to leave
But I’m also afraid to stay.
I’m afraid that if I leave,
Something else will try to push me deeper in to this soul-sucking black hole.
But if I stay, I’l sink further into oblivion.
Or complacency.
Maybe the two aren’t mutually exclusive.
But I feel like I’m down here, crying out for help
Hoping a man in bright shining armor will reach out
And pull me right into his arms.
Not this time.
Time for me to get out,
Without a crutch
Without fear.
It’s time for me to venture
Into what I’m really meant for.
Because I know this freaking oblivion
Just isn’t it.
About the Creator
Woman With an Edge
If your heart is not in it, why do it? That's why I write.
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