I always thought that
all the trauma that has
happened to me was somehow
my own fault. like when
my dad was doing drugs or the
times he tried to kill himself;
and when he fell off a balcony
(which caused his death) that was
also somehow caused by me.
there was also the time my
grandmother on his side got
into a car accident that caused her
to die a year before he did,
I had asked to go with her,
and all I could think from then on
was that if she had said yes I would've
been dead too.
then there have been a good
handful of other times
over the years I thought it
was me, myself and I that I had caused.
I, since then, have come to
the realization that:
1) I can count on one hand the
number of times things I had caused and the
rest was bullshit,
2) I probably am depressed, and
3) There is no God.
that is the sad truth.
About the Creator
Amber Crocker
Instagram: midnightblackheart
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