Directly after it happened,
words flowed like a spring stream.
I wrote through the mourning,
scribbled through the pain.
Then I came out there,
and I tried to heal my heart.
I saw, touched, felt
everything that was you...
I lost my voice that day,
no words have come since.
For months I wonder why,
Where had my voice gone?
….Until he called me,
And we spoke of you.
He hurt, I hurt
The change began.
All this time,
fear held my voice hostage.
To write what I felt,
I needed to first feel.
Here I sit,
poorly putting some words down
as if to pretend I fixed the problem.
The fact is I am lost.
In my years I have lost a great deal,
yet nothing has ever felt like this.
Alone I sit at night wondering
how do I continue without you,
how does life be normal again?
Truth be told, I am the problem,
My thoughts I avoid,
I am not comfortable with myself.
Does this mean I start over,
I don’t know who I am.
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