I think I am my ideal self
The person I could have been if the world never hurt me
If I had come into the world on time
Been born into a partnership that loved one another
That communicated successfully when there were conflicts
That didn’t talk about each other badly to the kids that were supposed to represent a union of their love
That cared about each other so deeply they would move worlds for each other
That liked each other’s little quirks
If I had grown up believing happy marriages were possible
Then I would believe that kind of love exists for me
I would have the confidence to love patiently
To not force feelings that aren’t there yet and ruin a good friendship
To know that building a foundation is okay
To know that love is a feeling
And a feeling doesn’t disappear when the person isn’t in your sight
To know that people who love you don’t secretly talk bad about you when you can’t see them
That version of me would be so happy right now
But all I feel is doubt about something if it’s not in my field of vision
I can’t believe some people believe things exist
That everything in the universe would still exist if we closed our eyes
That we wouldn’t just be in the eternal void
Every time we blink
And cease to be
About the Creator
Hufflecup
I want nothing more than to dedicate my life to writing, so I figured I would start here to test the waters. I will be submitting stories to as many communities as possible.
Comments (1)
Your words reveal the innermost part of your heart and soul. That is bravery. That is courage. still, we are deeply wounded by life sometimes and left with scars that never go away. Your writing is one of the best ways to work on your own healing, and I can feel this effort in reading some of your work. Well done!