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by Lavinia Guadalupe 2 years ago in inspirational
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It gets better
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The definition of failure is lack of success or the omission of expected or required action

We as people feel like we have failed at some point in life

Whether it's with a test or an essay

Maybe even a marriage or as a parent

But have we really failed just because of what we’ve done doesn’t match the textbook expectations

Does that make us inferior to the standard that was printed in the dictionary

To the articles that show the good in those who receive but not the ones that work for it

We value ourselves on the words of others even when we deny it

We worry what their wondering eyes see when they judge us intently

Making us squeamish within our skins

Hoping that they say something

Something kind and not completely ego shattering

The wait for their words make your stomach ache

Waiting for them to say something only to never speak to you

To stare at you every chance they may have only to continue on with no communication

That wordless space that you can’t find a way to break without looking desperate

Desperate for the deep yearning for their words

The yearning for their approval

Only to notice that you've wasted so much time on your mild obsession over their lack of words

What about your words

What about those words that swell in your throat only to get swallowed back done by the fear of being corrected, ignored or shushed

Words that just sit on your tongue making your mouth feel uneven on the inside

making your anxiety feel so bad that you become ill

ill with an undertone of self-reflection having you notice that their words won’t change who you are as a person when you by definition “failed”

...

Because in all honesty fuck failing

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About the author

Lavinia Guadalupe

I am a published poet four times over in Topeka Kansas. I rarely write happy sounding poems or stories. Most of what I write is personal in a way, or somewhat controversial. Nothing I write is meant to offend anyone. Please read and enjoy!

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