So, you want to apologize to me
This is...this is something I’ve been waiting for-for what seems like an eternity
Something that for so long I’ve only dreamt of
The apology that’s been well over due since I could think of
You want to apologize for taking a part of my childhood and turning it to ruins
For the physical pain you put me through and
The mental torment from the words that I thought were true
From you
Sayin that
I’m a waste
I don’t matter
And for me to get under the skin of a grown ass man at 12 years old..man that’s even sadder
You fucked my head up and I never looked back
The damage you did almost caused my heart-rate to go flat
Are you proud of that?
You almost sent me under, 6 feet before I even turned 13
But I’m sure you know that since you’re apologizing right?
Oh I get it..
You must have spent all this time trying to get your wording together
So that I could have this perfect apology forever
To treasure
Treasure the moment that YOU are on the verge of tears
Apologizing for all the years
The years I spent thinking that what you said to me, what you DID to me was justified
Because it was never was brought to light
And if I had my way you’d be trembling with guilt and regret, begging for forgiveness
Because that would be in your best interest
What an apology that would be
But it’s something that..I will never see
-Nia S.B🌸
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