I've had low self-esteem as long as I can remember
Had issues with my appearance and my weight
Felt self-conscious and inferior in many ways
But was never seen as less than beautiful and sexy by anyone I date
I'm not sure I've ever felt less attractive and desirable
Been more insecure with my own body and even questioned if I'm inadequate sexually
Even when I'm right in front of you, it seems like you'd rather be looking at someone else
Acting like any other man wouldn't be happy to be in your place, like you're embarrassed of me
I was always the funny one, smart and creative if nothing else
Sometimes I even start to wonder about that with you, acting like half the time I say something that I get on your nerves
Am I actually that unlovable? More a liability than an asset? More a nuisance than a comfort?
I thought I was settling before and had too low of standards, but now I'm questioning what I deserve
I can't say you *made* me feel this way because I'm responsible for how I react, for not speaking up and letting it go on so long
When sometimes you act like you're above me, like all I have wouldn't even come close to what you want and what you need
Like I said, I've always had issues with feeling insecure and unattractive
This is just the first time I've ever felt like a guy actually agreed...
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