Months before it hit
I was already practicing what's it like to be sick
I hate allergies and during that times my backward analogies to myself
I wasn't good with mental health
The semester was good, my friends struggle around
I tried fixing something that wasn't broken
It was gone, and nobody wanted it, I was selfish with it all
I cried nights over and over again
I decided I wanted to take a break
Put a gap into my breath and focus on what my brain hates
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4 months go by
I'm ready to go back outside
Happy and thrilled, I forgot what people are like
I spent a week hanging out with friends
We were joking about how the world would end
We knew that this small disease will blow over
Then the next week it came to our city
Maybe it was karma, bad luck, it wouldn't become something big right?
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4 months pass again
I really miss my friends, we were all so close
College campus shut down and now we are behind black mirrors
I'm used to this you know? I've been here before even when I was born
But some of my friends weren't
I felt my mental health dip again
I'm waking up to nothing
Play games, hearing music, and gain weight
It was a common daily routine, I even became a little bit mean
I became cold, a bit a goblin or a troll underneath a bridge
My hair grew longer than it ever had before
Social media was such a bore
Youtube and other platforms ran out of things for me to watch
I binged everything and sometimes even my friends
I stop talking and let them write the paragraphs
Somehow as a poet, during the start of it all
I lost my words. My rhythm. the sweet sounds that come out of mind.
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A year passes
I was lucky enough to find someone who understands me
Dust me off, tell me "I know, it's not that easy"
I thought I was ok, I was in a dark place thinking it was light
I was a confused moth man
She has shown me, my wings are beautiful, I was an angel to her
I got back into school, giving it my all
Gaining back what I loss
Chasing roller coasters, killing time, trying to speak like I'm divine
I went into therapy, try to find what's inside of me
It took a lot of work, crying, urges, and moments where I was nowhere
But I was still there
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This year, is better
Colleges are slowly opening up
Solutions are around the corners, free of charge
Still, I am afraid though
Numbers are still rising and falling
We keep hope in our hearts
Sometimes conspiracies in our ears
I hope the best for every year for everyone
Money is hard, mental health is dropping at times
More struggles around
I hope, I know things will get better for whoever is reading this
It has to, for we, all of us, had enough
We need a break, good news, and something brightens our days
I see it, it's coming, I know it
Don't give it up on it
About the Creator
KuroHoshi
A Poet, An Artist, and the person who tries to become a living star
I write the about the creatures from underneath my mind
Some are happy, others are truthful, but I'll let you decide what's their fate
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