If I woke the sleeping lion

I blame my anxiety

Fear

I was meant to hold you down

Presume order

But the problem with that is you start to find comfort in order and are no longer seeing fear by itself

It is now partnered with control you think you need to survive

To make sure that you don't step on the lions foot because you where taught that then it would not be happy

And so you get comfortable making other people happy

Is it wrong to say I've found peace in making other people happy

Because what about me?

Have I replaced my love for long talks under the covers for clean dishes in the sink

With the feeling of you loving on my figure when I turn around with that new outfit you just got me in the closet

Why do I always have to question my peace when I think of you

Shouldn't are happyniss dance together and match up internally?

All about you

But also

All about me

Or do those types of questions die with my found comfort in making you happy

See I was taught not to step on the lions foot because then it will not be happy

And I don't like unhappy

Or maybe I do.