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All night awake

Trying to search through my brains

Trying to make sense of my pains

Trying to hear what I am saying

Does anyone up there hear when I am praying?

Do I need a speaker or dance around insane

Before I get a reply or help from the Saints

Because this sadness is becoming so hard to tame

All night assessing my life from a crooked eye

Some truth of my life are hard to swallow, they are cyanide

Like a dark room, one bulb doesn't illuminate the darkest side

Should you decide to enter, I would need to rearrange and put the reals aside

I am just a person

Trying to figure out a lesson

Trying to fight being a pessimist

While confused like a blind man writing in cursive

Don't want to wake up cause reality is taunting

Don't want to sleep cause my bad dreams aren't stopping

And I am not Joseph, so the interpretation isn't forth coming

But I could relate to him because my betrayals, I never saw coming

Checking my pillow, soaked in tears, saliva and ego

Soaked with thoughts of how I can make it out of here

While my body doesn't make effort, no

So big my thoughts, resting on a thin mind,

Like a polar on a thin ice, it's too much to bear