I only cry when I’m alone

I was beautiful

I was loved

Full of life

Full of joy

Things turn strange

Body becomes deranged

Every storm cloud rains

Every day after

Every day that passes

Dust disintegrates from the sky

And ashes fall over my life

Like pebbles being thrown in an ocean

Except my heart is just as vast

With an emptiness that fills it

The debris clogs my throat

The dust fills my eye slits

The storm cloud thunders

My hopelessness grows thick

I hold in my stomach

I think I’m going to be sick

Show me something

But nobody moves an inch

A darkness comes over me

A shadow haunts my breath

Tell me now

What’s here

Now that it’s all left

Emotions run rampant as the darkness sets in

I had this sense of morbidity

Ever since I was a kid