I'm scared of the thoughts inside my head,
the things that should remain unsaid.
I feel the hatred kicking in
but there's no way for me to begin
to fight the intrusive
thoughts that are abusive.
They beat me up, inside and out.
Can't I have one day where they don't roam about?
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I'm struggling with depression but I don't want to give in to my negative thoughts. If I do, it will get worse and regret will eat me alive. It's a vicious cycle and so hard to escape. I want to get better so bad but it feels impossible.