and you are not alone - A Poem
Frightened and overwhelmed
I sit upon the floor arms around knees
Rocking I speak quietly
"We’re okay. You're okay. I'm okay"
I wonder how often I will need to say it
to believe it.
It seems no matter what I say these days
in the vein of positivity
it Is nothing but a lie
I am not okay.
I am not fine.
I cry more days than not.
I long to run away
To disappear into the darkness
never to be found.
I have responsibilities I cannot leave
Lives that depend on me
and I cannot let them down
Yet I fear I am already doing so
What kind of mother am I
Sitting in the dark crying again
Wishing to be gone again
Believing that every day is harder
than the day before.
I went through a very dark and difficult time. I have gotten help and my medication seems to be on point. I still have moments like this, but it’s short lived. I see a therapist and I’m not afraid to be honest about how I’m feeling. I know I’m not alone and I hope that someone reads this and knows that they aren’t alone either.
About the author
I am a wife, a mother of 3, a pet mom & I have a B.A. in Psychology & Womens Studies. For many years I've put off my dream of writing to take care of my family & I'm grateful to have found Vocal. It's never too late to live your dream.