I Love you, Every Part Of You.

I love you, every part of you . To feel you energy so strong , to smell your cologne filling my lungs while I sleep , your hands that search my curves in a desiring a primal hunger.

I love you, and yet I can not tell you physically how I feel, for I only feel these things as your form is only ever in an astral state of being, you are not here when I awake from slumber yet tell me you will be here soon , that things are coming to were we shall meet in the physical state.

How long must I wait though, do you not think I've waited long enough ? This morning after yet another desirable nights slumber , I felt you there beside me, cradling me as I had slept and slowly woke to morning light, but it's not you, its just your energy that you send out to me and with that sad truth I could not help it but weep.

I cried knowing you are not here , knowing that all I have is your astral form, your spiritual energy . No do not keep telling me that we will be together soon , my heart can't take it, deep down I know it will happen should the universe allow it, but I've nothing physical of you right now, just the astral form.

I feel insane with it , yet no amount of Doctors would consider me insane , as I'm too sane in their eyes and they will not consider me in need of help , but I need help. Most mediums and physics will talk about a demon or will not pick up on you in any way , I'm lost, wanting you so badly.