Solemn ties around the perpetual myth
of grandiosity orchestrate the belief
that self-assurance tells a story of
what had to be overcome to get here.
“Here”
marks the stage
where the brink of havoc and chaos is measured
by the slight temperament of attention-seeking.
“Here”,
with unyielding honesty,
paves an imaginary road to unexpected redemption.
“Here”,
where the creed “I think, therefore, I am” inks itself
into the spine of before and after thoughts.
“Here”
where laughter over the incredulous
leads to perplexed thought
"Here"
where the apology river flows
into a bay of forgiveness
"Here"
is somewhere,
neither here nor there,
but only in the throes of our truth.
Your faultless laughter
coursed through my spine again.
I thirst for the wisdom
your innocence brings.
Your effortless glow is existential in a way.
As I am always submerged in the absurdity of the absurd,
that smile can sometimes be seen as something unreal.
It's breathtaking. . .
your confidence
of knowing all to well
you could never be
one of them.
Them who shook me
out of my own
unfettered core.
Them who wanted
to iron out the kink
of my spiraling
thoughts. . .
in and around
and around again.
Them who always
threw me into
the earth's fault line
without even questioning
the screams that
pelted into me.
Them who never could
muster a nod
to who I was
and could be. . .
to me, myself and I.
I wanted to crawl
out of my victim's hole
to lay the soft skin of my hand
down to the fulcrum of your touch.
If I could size my past down
to appeal to your outer eye
I would.
Would your wide eyed
gaze still catch me?
Would my hair still
feel like the rawness
of untouched silk?
Would my golden complexion
still ignite
the embers of your soul?
Would my non-judgemental eyes
still pave a labyrinth
of purity
into your starving heart?
Would my ten tone laughter
melt your iced up edges
or send shivers down your spine?
Maybe we can meet halfway?
A moment of your blank minded stare
can find a way into my fire starter heart.
We can walk hand in hand
to a new and fresh start.
The tilted corner of your wise smile
makes me wonder about the
held back tears
behind those darkened eyes.
It could only be the two of us
piecing together
the weight of your wasted youth trial.
You still steal my mind
in the cross of his guise.
We almost were
a double sunrise.
I lived to see you and me
but who could ask you
to see past
my rainbow glazed sea.
My dark nights
had all the layers
you sought to find
in a beggar's plea.
I kept it locked
with a rusted bolt.
It could never be a love song,
just a forgettable plot.
I could never
utter the lover's words I sought.
But I love to see
your brand of happy faults.
Till this renewed day
I'd give up mine to hand you yours
in some beautiful way
With the time scented say
your deep entrenched
heart still lights up my May.
You will always own your night.
You can never forget your flight.
You will see new stars
and bask in its light.
Our 19 year old hearts
didn't know a clean edged sight.
It could only learned
with an more entrenched might.
But your strong will always belong
to my poet's delight.
When the sun goes down
it screams finality.
When its embers ring high
it gets harder to breathe.
As the pale moonlight
packs away the light of day,
one has to wonder
who gets the final say.
But the star lined clouds
look more alive tonight
than the sharpness
of yesterday's hindsight.
And as that troubled owl
begins to sing
my ten cent resolve
ain't barely but a thing.
The sleepy waters
bear its ripple effect
when tomorrow doesn't know
today's derelict.
I can steal a new sun
through the night's empty run.
Just feel it pitched slow
and let me have this one.
Letting go of that one edge of time
from familiar faces
and dead end places
to what isn't joyfully mine.
Time to own a new night.
The sleeping birds sing my song.
You reach for my hand
and the night always says "so long."
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