When you met me
I was a mess
I have to say
I was at my worst
Scared, lost, abused, traumatized
Broken, dirty, half-human subcreatured shell
You didn't judge my vices
You kept me safe
And talked to me
You held me when I was frightened
And spoke life to me when I was dead inside
You encouraged me when I had lost hope
And inspired me to live better
I never expected to get better....
I didn't feel the least bit attractive or appealing
But you convinced me I was
I had lost all confidence and self-esteem
You kept convincing me of how beautiful I was
And encouraged me to pursue my gifts and talents
Somehow, somewhere throughout the adversity
And transitions going on in my life
My whole world crumbled and drastically changed
But You stayed by my side
And my feelings grew for you
But not for you
As you became bigger to me
I became smaller to you
I get angry, upset....I try harder
It only pushes you further away
Jealousy, resentment, a sabotaged self-fulfilled prophesy
Hating you for making me feel things I never wanted to feel again
Love, disappointment, and rejection
And the repetitive devaluation of self
Not much different from how you found me
I want to hate you
I want to be angry
But I can't
I'm just heartbroken
About the Creator
Shannon King
Born in St. Augustine, Fl, Shannon has a Master of Arts Degree in Applied Behavior Analysis from USF. She is currently pursuing a career in music, singing and writing with a focus in poetry, biographies, and inspirational messages.
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