Half Marathon
A poem about a long run and the love of a city
The farther I go, the less I am.
Down the hill and into the city.
Cross the bridge, feel the hazy sun
Listen to the people in the stadium.
One, two, one, two, feet meet pavement
meet metal concrete grass
And there are people flying past
and there is the river to my right
and the farther I go, the less I am
worried about the future
wondering about what’s gone
weighing what I’ve done
I am just a mass of oxygen and energy
just one little heart in this city
and I remember coming down to this park
when I was in fourth grade
I remember liking this place
I didn’t have much to compare it to then,
but here I am now still thinking it
despite the mountains, despite the culture
despite the places I’ve been,
I’m falling in love with Cincy again
and the farther I go, the less I am
desperate to make it all happen
yearning to land
I am breathing in warm December air
and climbing the Mount Adams stairs
here, a handrail, there a turn
old stone blocks, bridge across the parkway
and there are the Immaculata bells
and there is the city on the hill
and here I am, expecting nothing
but the breath in, out, in, out,
and the one, two, one, two foot slap
cobblestones
red brick roads
fly downhill and up again,
and the farther I go, the less I am
sure of my destination
needing a destination
wanting anything besides this sign:
Welcome to Eden Park.
We’ll make it back across
well before dark
we jog parabolas through the hills of town
we are flying all the way down
on the trail by the water, and the people
walking home from the game
(21-41 Bengals, who dey)
are happy and warm and a little drunk
and we stop at the bookstore
and I think I can do three, maybe five, more
I feel good today. There’s nothing
in my brain.
It is a nice change.
And the farther I go, the less I am
nervous, needy,
looking for confirmation.
I need no one’s attention.
I answer my own questions.
I am whole just as I am, closing in
on mile ten,
turn left, up the long Devou climb
back to where we started.
Here, a hairpin turn.
There, a lesson learned.
We are breathless with distance
when we reach the end.
And the farther I go, the less I am.
About the Creator
Sarahmarie Specht-Bird
A writer, teacher, traveler, and long-distance hiker in pursuit of a life that blends them all. Read trail dispatches and adventure stories at my website.
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