Growth Through Adversity
I believe everything teaches us something. This day I learnt they could take all my material things away but they could not take my heart, my mind or my soul, those belong to me and I will use this pain to grow.
When I was just a little girl
I rarely got to eat
My clothes were torn and dirty
And my shoes di'nt fit my feet
We lived in poverty and debt,
with times of absent lighting
Cold baths meant shaking cold and wet
To background noise of fighting
My father was such an angry man
That Mother tiptoed round in Fear
And We kids dared not to rock the boat
Held our breath when he was near
Our Mum was just a simple thing
No schooling left her dense
She chained smoked like a chimney sweep
And Swore …. so much you took offence
There were many times of hiding... too
Behind the sofa … flat to floor
From aggressive men called ‘collectors’
Who thunder banged the door
I found everything confusing
It made no sense at all
From the language they were using
To the endless drama squall
I tried hard to be a good kid
Practiced manners, studied hard
loved the sharing of my learning
To find it tossed out in the yard
So I became a people pleaser
And cooked and cleaned age 8
But that didn’t work well either
He’d chuck the food ….. and smash the plate
Father had this temper, of crazy scary rages
Would shout, punch doors and break our things
Incensed ….. his blow ups ran in stages
Our Mother often copped it
with a fairly hefty smacking
We’d hide away, try not to hear
the sound of brittle bones … when cracking
It wasn’t safe to say a word
Just tolerate, accept, abide
Give No Show of your emotions
Keep those feelings locked inside
But nothing lasts forever
Soon Mother left and ran away
She took my little sister with her
Where she went - she didn't say
Then Twas only 6 months later
When Father too abandoned ship
He took my little brother with him
While I was on a big road trip
So I came home to find a completely empty house
And Everything I owned chucked out
A chasm that was quiet as a mouse
Neither of them had wanted me
and at 15 years of age
I couldn’t work out what id done
Their moods I couldn’t gauge
Feeling lost and lonely .... fearful sad
Thinking boy I must be really bad
What to do Now, where can I go
Think Pam think, yup I know
Mother always liked that song
Walk tall … and look the world right in the eye
Well That day I grew, and did just that
And I didn't stop to cry
Now that was 40 years ago and
I've done such a lot since then
Worked hard and raised a family
And I began my life again.
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