Forgive & Forget

I want to move past it

forget like I forgave

but those concepts don't pair

as easily as we say they do

I can say I'm not mad

really, I'm not

but every moment feels like waiting

for the other shoe to drop

for tragedy to strike

for a seance of the ghost that used to be

I'll cower in my silence

memories like drive-in movie films in the night

flickering in front of two too-wide eyes

and I won't ask for the things I need to survive

singing sad songs in my room

instead

I'll try to love myself

as much as I love you