For Her

You weren’t there when you shoulda

Off in a haze when I needed

You never grew up

You only moved out

For the longest time

I loved to hate you

With a smile when I saw

I used you to escape

Then time changed a bit

I started to grow

I hated to hate you

Not worth my time no more

In my late-early years

You left this world

And my guilt took your place

I hated to love you

You died, I cried, then numbed my pain

I'm just like you

The same numb from the same ice

It hurt when I learned this

But now I know why

Your pain, I’ve experienced

Your pain, I know

In my own sorta way

It took seven years

Then two more to add words

This time, momma, I can say

I love to have loved you

Oh yes, I love to have loved you

Each and every

Love to love you

Each and every day