I think before you
did that what we
have before us is
the end of you
and me. It is the
end of something dragged
through the mud, a
hollow feeling that will
only go away when
we part. What we had
could be counted
on one hand but
has felt like an
eternity. why do you
want to struggle here?
Neither of us is
happy, you know as
well as I do
we are better off alone.
What's the point of
masochism when you receive
no pleasure in the end?
We are stuck here, living
in an eternity
of passive aggressive rage.
What is wrong with
us? why are we
like this, staying where
we are unhappy?
It is insane to
believe that everything
I have worked for
burned down in flames.
The flames of which
I directly and indirectly
lit with those around me.
I look back and what
I see before me are
all the bridges I have
personally burnt to the
ground, never to be
crossed again. Ahead
of me in the direction
I plan on going is
a new, long path. One
my hands have not yet
ruined, one where I
will slowly build new
bridges to cross. There
is hope that these ones
will not get burned as well.
Time will tell, eventually,
as I go, and as I age.
What hope is there
to have? We live in
a world without
happiness, in a world
where entertainment in
the media world is
ingrained in our
minds to the point where
if we do not have
it, we have no idea
what to do with ourselves.
Our nation lives for the
internet, the news, the
television, but where does
the line stop between
having responsibilities and
having things to find
mind numbing pleasure
in? We may be trapped
in a loop, a catch-22,
between what we are
required to do and
what we want to do.
Do you really
believe this is
worth all the stress,
all the madness, all
of the sadness? You have
worked so hard to
get and keep what
you thought you wanted
or deserved. Now it
feels like all of the blood,
sweat and tears
have backfired on you,
doesn't it? Is it
really worth all the
trouble? This is something
that you have to
figure out for yourself,
since nobody else
will come to save you
if you hit rock bottom.
About the Creator
Amber Crocker
Instagram: midnightblackheart
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