The writing prompt came -
"What emotions do you find it hardest to accept within yourself?"
Wanted to leave this question sitting on the shelf
The tell-tale sign I needed to address
Time to own up to myself and confess
Emotions that challenge my soul to express
Anger, pride and desire
Those I least admire
In me
Expected me
Why?
I try
To understand what they are telling me
The insights begging to be set free
I still don't know what they want me to know
I see it in my partner
I see it in my father
I see it in my youngest
It's my anger on show
Rage out of the cage
In an instant
Inconsistent
Fading then shading
A limit reached
Righteousness leached
A way to be
Only I can see
Open eyes to what is
The answer to this pop quiz
Easy to say, not easy to do
Changing the feet in my shoe
In the heat of the moment
Hindsight my necessary component
Energy reducing
Drama producing
Sometimes I need to leave
Sit in silence and breathe
Reset Reflect Reject
Accept
A vision of my choice
Calmly use my voice
Return to listen
Without opposition
Make a decision
Unconditional love
To what sized glove?
Now a ride with pride
I already feel fried
Anger left me depleted
Luckily I'm still seated
Tall poppy syndrome
Born in an Aussie home
Don't stand out
Or sellout
Or Doubt doubt
Who do you think you are?
You don't deserve to shine like a star
Dim your light, hush your voice
Like you ever had a choice
Do what you are told
Stay in the box we've sold
Don't make a fuss
And you'll get an A-plus
Success on a dirty plate
With no reserved date
Unless you play the game
And keep yourself lame
A balancing act tough to tame
Glad to exit the race
But do I still want to leave a trace?
Purpose my way
But…
Is purpose disguised pride at play?
Desire makes me a liar
I don't know my soul's deepest desire
Creating is my passion, my fire
But is that the same thing as desire?
I want to experience it all
Even the parts I take a fall
But…Do I really?
Can I live and love and let life and love live freely?
Sometimes it hurts too much to see transparently
A longing for the filters to be back
Return to the comfy known track
Wishful thinking
Not what I wanna be drinking
But… Wait. What. If. I….find….
Desire confuses my mind
A rhyming reflection
Or mindful deception
Who knows for sure?
Trust the universal law
All things for a reason
Perfectly assigned season
Conditions met
Meaning set
To be
Just be
Me
Thanks for reading
Thanks for being you
Originally published on Medium
About the Creator
Amy Marley
Energy seeker who is amused to be confused...often!
Loves to play and rhyme along the rollercoaster journey called life.
amymarley.com
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