Ego lll: Undesirable Emotions
The Perfect Fantasy
I know we were never truly a thing
But when I thought about you
It would make me want to dream
To be better than I was and more
It was scary to know
You were the one I adored
The closest thing I had to me
We let go before it could ever be
Some things are greater left a mystery
Other wise known as, the perfect fantasy
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He still pops into my head from time to time. It was always the wonder of what it could have been if it actually did turn into something, but maybe that was the scary part. Would it have been a disaster? Or would it have actually turned into something good? I think I feared both to be honest but the mystery of it all kept me hanging on. I thought he was different, he made me want to be a better person, anything seemed possible. In my mind, who I wanted to be was possible. It was a beautiful feeling yet terribly tragic at the same time. I realized he was the first glimpse I ever had at the idea of falling in love with myself. That terrified me because I always questioned of whether or not I deserved love. I know now that I do, I just get to give it to myself first.
About the Creator
Taylor Giandomenico
This is my journey, my story, written through a sequence of poems expressing my pain and transforming it into something beautiful. I'm grateful for you stopping by to join me and I hope that this may help you along your journey too. ❤️
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