She reads on red wings
Dreams, in streams,
some vulgar things
You saw me yesterday
That dress I wore
Beautiful, I don’t recall
Walls gilded in glistening dew
Remember the day, plucked
I like the way you touch me there
Don’t stop please, god, keep on!
That feeling you create stirs me
Always, bringing me to a new height
Now, sing me away in a coffin, a face
A ladder leaning, splinters a maze
Contractual moorings, arson in haste
Water mistakes, a fumbling, disgrace
Peel the skin, it hurts to touch
Don’t touch me, I hate that feel
You insist on torturing me, why?
Leave me untouched, untouchable
Save your voice for better verse
Thrash away swiftly the proverbial horse
Better meaning and truth of will
Add and subtract the emotional till
I remember the days we were happy
Cliched, yet typically radiant, alive
Smiles, laughter, and no truer love
Could we, perhaps replay those scenes?
I stare too long at the light in the ceiling
Recessed and warm, it’s halo, my dream
Conversing with it, eyes open, squinting
We manage agreement, with light relenting
These memories are painful
Nostalgia is just not my thing
Please stop talking about the past
If I could change - if only, stop
What act is action? When words become sound
When girls control boys standing, sifting in sand
What mindfulness sprays from levers not pulled
Where are the ones we wait for? Why are there none?
The song of your voice, fluttering
The whisper of my name off your lips
Moans, sighs, pleasantries, and the enjoyment
Thunderous notes in my symphony
He raised his tongue to click, to spit
A reprimand of passion, the bridle and bit
Representing her yearning in bland, muted tones
His failure in those lives, his yoke, their stone
That shrill vindictive yell
The harsh disappointment in a voice
I dream of these and wake alarmed angered
Wishing I could forget the noise, screams
Sins of the mother covered over by rocks
Floating with the organization of gnats in flight
Seeping oil from creases in a cardboard box
Fleeing under shadows behind bloodshot sight
The look you had when you smiled,
Took my breath away, fiercely contagious
I was always striving to recreate it in you
A wondrous urge to repeat the bliss
We led each other, palms joined, once
Toward fences built and trenches dug
Simpleness of thought, content inside pairs
Which way are you looking? What stairs dare.
Dark hateful eye cast onto me
Burning, burning through every pore, charred
Dejected and rejected, abject disgrace.
Please don’t look, turn away.
We fell behind the deadline walls
where dust and rats and dead cats crawl
When smart ideas were thrown away
for love with hope and fresh decay
Asserting faith in larger things,
I stayed a course in smallest rings
Danced with demons I knew before,
then left them hiding under wood-planked floors
Pulses thread while tears vibrate, and
Bleaker thoughts contrive their escape.
Covered scars behind thickened lids
Over eyes that dreamt in melted film
Lend me your words, lay them here
Hear the blood course, watch me steer around
this fear of wanting, it compresses our sight
against half-truths and promises, ideas and lies
Those nights alone, long and cold,
foreboding tones and brittle bones
Memorials to pain and fear left stains,
like carious forms of childhood play
Endings sewn on patchy jeans,
our bandages stuck on happy scenes
Internal sound from airless depths
in culverts and compost of other selves
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