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Deuces

by N. Thomas 11 months ago in heartbreak
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July 2021

Deuces
Photo by Nathan Fertig on Unsplash

I'M BEAUTIFUL EVEN IF YOU CAN'T SEE IT

I can't control if love isn't the only thing that's blind

I'M WORTH SHOWING OFF IN PUBLIC EVEN IF YOU DON'T HAVE THE BALLS TO DO IT

I can't help it if you've let mainstream white media control your mind

I wanted something greener, to water and tend to it and watch it grow

You went out of your way to starve it and keep it in the shade

Either you love me or you don't, and it's become obvious which it is

How you treat me and if you stick around should never have been based on how much I weighed

I'M DESIRABLE EVEN IF YOU DON'T WANT ME

You're a fool for not recognizing it, but my heart (and yes my body) is highly valuable even if you don't want it

I'M WORTHY OF RESPECT EVEN IF YOU DON'T WANT TO GIVE IT

You've gotten so used to treating me like dirt that you've started to blatantly flaunt it

I gave you an inch and you kept taking, walking all over me for a mile

You keep stringing me along for when it's convenient even though I'll never be what you want me to be

You've gotten so used to being inconsiderate because you've stopped thinking of me as anyone who matters

You've gotten beyond complacent, long since stopped caring what you do or say around me

I'M LOVABLE EVEN IF YOU DON'T LOVE ME

After all this time you still can't say or even write the words

I'M WORTH TALKING TO EVEN IF YOU IGNORE MY TEXTS

There's a difference between being casual and disregard, and that line's been too blurred

I wanted to look out for you and make you happy

But I could never make you happy, you've made that abundantly clear

Now I need to look out for myself for once

My self-esteem can't handle the constant blows for another 3 years

Yes, it's been 3 years, and I'd like to sing Tony Toni Tone Happy Anniversary

But we're not technically together, and instead I'm singing the blues

I just need to pick myself up and move on because I deserve more

IT DOESN'T MEAN I'M NOTHING JUST BECAUSE I'M NOTHING TO YOU

That night I was humiliated and at a loss for words and had to turn away

Because the only thing even worse would have been for you to see me cry

Here's a POV for you to project: me leaning over seductively and whispering, "Go fuck yourself"

Then my fat ass turning and walking away from you for the last time, BOY BYE

heartbreak

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