Destroyed Security
Vulnerability at its Finest
My long hair to hide my face or sometimes the tears falling
I cut it short, then buzzed half of it off to make a point
That I was not afraid of or under the control of him anymore
A blanket to cover the back of my head and side of my face to hide from uncomfortable feelings
Every night I feel the need to hide, as if something in the darkness will get to me if I don’t
My best friend and I comparing traumas, self-harm urges or scars...the desire to just not be
It probably can’t get any more toxic than it is and we don’t care because we’re best friends
My therapist telling me to trust her
I told her I did, but it was a lie
Because I don’t know how to
All the things that used to bring security to me have been taken away
To prove a point
To hurt myself
Or to get hurt...by someone else
Nothing and no one makes me feel safe or secure anymore
About the Creator
Amanda Olejniczak
I am a writer, poet, and proud advocate for mental health. Addtional content I create can be found on Instagram: @amanda_unfiltered or @amanda_unfiltered_poetry.
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