Motivation
It is half desire
half necessity
I am motivated by my longing to use my voice
to empower others
to help those who need guidance
to set an example of integrity
But the necessity to live forces me to abandon my path
I walk away from a road few have tread but many have looked upon
so that I can sit on the side of the highway with the masses
watching as life passes me by
with my happiness in the passenger seat
I have been forced to set aside uplifting those who look to me in their moment of need
and instead watch as those by my side make them their victims
we are sharks
feeding in an ocean of insecure tears
I have parted ways with my desires
They now sit on my night stand
waiting to snuggle up next to me at night
and pat me on the back
as I cry myself to sleep
My motivation wanes
I left a part of myself at the office I call home
as I walked out the door for the final time today
I think it was somewhere in that mess
I give in to a new motivation
Working from nine to nine to pay bills
One tenth desire
Nine tenths necessity
I am broken
My suit and tie is my shield from morality
Screaming
Begging to be let out
Why can’t I break free
I am now three halves desire
Longing to let my dreams once again be a part of me
to walk away from this nightmare
and find my motivations where they should be
one half desire
and only one half
necessity
About the Creator
Jefferey A Ayers
I am an aspiring writer who was born and raised in the Pacific Northwest. I joined vocal out of desire, and curiosity. This will be the first time I have put my writing out in the public, and I look forward to hearing what you all think.
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