Depressed and Reunited with My Happiness

I used to fall asleep with my face soaked in tears.

Tonight, there is only a smile here.

A soft smile, my eyes resting shut,

and my cheeks warm with happiness;

a glow I can now feel within myself.

Happiness-- a feeling I thought had

abandoned me long ago.

But everything lost can be found again.

My happiness feels like sunshine from my soul,

a cathartic candle burning in the night,

and my depression purrs in its light.

I've spent my life fighting a demon that

only wished to be a companion.

A sick and twisted companion,

but one I have learned to accept and love in our own way.

Now, I feel deeper.

I love more fiercely.

I stand up taller.

I speak louder and with the authority of someone who fucking matters

...because we all do.

So tonight I smile,

Because I feel like one with the world.

Messy, twisted, chaotic, peaceful, and

enchanting.

I now know what it feels like

to feel like myself.

After years of feeling lost, I've finally taught

myself how to navigate my own ship,

and love a life at sea.