Cowboy

He once saw the sun a long time ago

When a woman's face that he loved was in view

Things change and now he has no song to sing

Since his mother's sound has faded too

He goes riding and riding

through the plains as if trying

to hide away from his pain

He had to leave still

his mother's grave on the hill

But he thinks of her deep in his heart

Yes he carries the memories and pains in his heart

On the road a hundred miles away

from a quiet town he used to call home

A wanderer most folks accepted him

But he won't stay where his family copped the disgrace

A young gunslinger has to go find his own place

So he keeps riding and riding

day and night without finding

the land he sees in his soul

Visions of a past from a life that couldn't last

and he pulls at his hat brim down low

No one hears his heart crying so

how could they know?

His mount slows to a walk but the boy doesn't notice

He's too busy reliving days gone by

He thought he knew his friends but he got hurt

He couldn't look people in the eye anymore

He felt like he couldn't try any harder than he already had

He keeps looking and looking

to the hills as if longing

But seems unsure what he's longing for

Maybe respect or a voice he can trust

Or some sunshine for his clouded soul

But the sun's gone down and left the plain to the cold

He shivers like the stars above

He'll have to make camp real soon

He can't sleep all night his mind won't slow

His thoughts take him down roads he doesn't want to go

Out there somewhere is a home for him

he's sure of that

But it will have to come to him

because he hardly knows where to look

He keeps hoping and hoping

While inside he is groping

in darkness for something to hold

His panic is strong but he can't see what's wrong

That old town had been no place for him

But he knows that he never was meant to be alone

The moon shines down on the fields

It's cold rays meeting the warm glow of his fire

The flames dance in the light breeze

So easy and carefree

The light comes with a new day to take the old one away

He leaves his trail and keeps moving

He'll keep searching and searching

'Til he fills in the yearning

that makes him feel only a shell

Some day visit he will

His mother's grave on the hill

Where he'll pour out the fears of his heart

But for now he must turn his back on the past