She didn’t need attention she needed something more
She needed the way he used to adore her
He’ll say it’s okay but she’s at the border
Is his love enough? Or should she prioritize hers?
They’ve been a rut more times than she can count and every single time he promises to make his way out and at first things change without a doubt but they never stay the same and she wants to know how
He plays video games from night to daylight hours
She’s going insane, alone, she feels a coward
Try’s to talk to him about it but he listens when he needs the power
Uses it to get her back just to retract
She’s lost courage
If she loses him she loses all she has
Their relationship needs to refurbish but even if it does will it last?
Will he stay? Or is this what he does when he wants to throw it all away?
Scared she’ll lose her life with him
She forgets her feelings and thinks about his
“Oh maybe i’m too over bearing, maybe I’m over sharing, maybe I’m the problem and I shouldn’t even be caring”
Manipulation settles in, whether or not he knows it
She’s a mess, can’t control it
Is he even upset over it?
The thoughts in her head begin to digress
She has so much worth but he doesn’t seem to notice it so she starts to believe in it
Puts love over all his shit
Because once it’s over she’ll be a wreck
Is she obsessed?
Is he already gone?
She lies in bed waiting for him for too long
Will it be recognition or closure?
Is it already over?
If he really knows her
He’ll realize the torture he’s putting her through
Feeling alone with someone is something no one should ever feel
What is forthcoming may not be what she wants to hear
But sometimes you have to love yourself more
Adore yourself, you’re not a bore
You’re not what his distance stands for
You deserve persistence and effort
Sometimes never is never
Accept it, address it, if he doesn’t progress then he’s already left and you need to move on
You are not what’s wrong