What am I doing
Do I even know
Are the decisions that I’m making
The right way to go?
I cleaned up
To do things the right way
Living a lot differently now
But is everything “ok”?
The longer I go
With a clearer head
The more I question
Everything that was said
Are these answers real
Or is it all bullshit
The sad thing is
I always have to question it
I truly have no idea
What’s wrong or what’s right
I was comfortable in darkness
Now I’m just scared and confused in the light
The unknown is irritating
Trying to fight the fear
Can’t help but second guess
My former desire to disappear
That thought is haunting
It upsets me to no end
I feel so alone
Even when surrounded by “friends”
Trying to stay optimistic
Hoping that things will change
One thing that’s constant
Nothing ever stays the same
About the Creator
Jeff Krause
I’ve been a musician for almost 25 years, that alone could provide story material for days. Life-long depression and drug addiction have had me constantly struggling to survive. But here I am, getting by a day at a time.
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I love this going to save this to my favorites it’s all my emotions now….