I used to feel things so big
In bright bold colours
Happiness so yellow it could compete with the sun
Love so deep red it matched the blood in my veins
And flares of excitement that would make a rose garden weep
But then came the blues
The feeling so sad it choked
Like the deep blue black of the sea
The feeling so lonely so empty
Like the grey void of an empty winter sky
And the numbness, the paralysing fear, the hopelessness
So black that it was almost nothing
Like drifting in cold empty space
The colours filled me up and bled me dry
The black overtook any other until they were a faded memory
I was lost in the darkness
Slowly, slowly the colours starting coming back
My niece opened her eyes for the very first time and red sparked in my chest
My friend followed her dream
And her little successes sprouted
Yellow in my soul
Little by little life gave me back my colours
Not as bright as before, maybe
So as not to blind me after my time in the dark
But the sadness that still ached and the loneliness that burned
Made my happiness and my love that much sweeter
A prize isn’t a prize after all
Unless it is won
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