ceaseless celestial chunk of sky

a love letter to grief in hopes that this, maybe this, will allow our hearts a moments rest.

for that endless ache to cease

i am just so sorry / i truly am

i hate hearing that / please you will never understand

we never knew one another yet we remain

teeny fragments of light reflecting off shattered mirrors

specifically you and me / it is just pure energy / connective tissue unseen

i never meant to hurt you / i did not really even know you

once i did / well once i did it all changed now did it not

the valiant effort of inflated ego pushing to prove your efforts as disingenuous / but you are who you are

which has always been an admiration / love at face value / true beauty

i must say this is where the jealousy fed and bred

from the beginning of days you might have known / i suppose

either way your glory and sureness stood alone

i remember walking in seeing your scribbled name

scattered all over the place

the physical weight of your energy you could afford to leave

it lingering all around just waiting for you

i did not even see it / how blind could i be

to be sitting in a surrounding shine of bits of you

standing in that home / your home / i did not even know

hearing your story / she is so lucky / without even knowing

sure you where the youngest of some but so astute

exquisite / talented / witty / wise / resourceful / kind

i did not even know you / i was out of my right mind

this unobtainable

the what would seem impossible

is bundled up and collected into a soul that can replicate life

it is not impossible / you are unstoppable

if there is nothing else we have learned it is to never doubt the resilience of you

i do not know you but i do know this

this sequence of unfortunate events are never meant to be tackled alone

as the experience draws near / the numbness becomes agony

and agony an endless burn

i feel it my duty to let you know there are others out here / dealing

surviving with shallow breaths / we want you to know you are not alone

someone else told me the same / i laughed and thought you have never experienced this kind of pain

yet they have and still are just trying to free the rest from the trenches of torment

i do not even know you yet you are still pieces of gold everything that glitters

scraps of steel / strong structure / wild / delicate / everything divine

you are gentle pieces of unchartered seas

you are as endless as time

everything and more that you are we all are just dreaming to be

- truly i am so sorry this grief thing can be real misery