Bitter Elixir

Drinking this bitter elixir

Won't help with the bigger picture

Sometimes it is neatly hidden

And is rarely ever written

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Infrequently I know I should

Know I am gifted with special

But it will not do any good

Because I'm not on that level

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Pursuing bigger ambitions

Wasn't easy to transition

I sunk back into my comfort

And thought of all I have suffered

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I get sullied by my own fears

My anxieties on the rise

This busted heart is slowly pierced

While I'm hiding my shameful cries

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I need to rid my bastard tongue

Of this disgusting rancid taste

To the back of my throat it clung 

I can't be found in this same place

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Stuck and it sucks