"BITCH, YOU ARE INFINITE."
,
something called
God
whispers
as my
shades of grey
m
e
l
t
into a burst highlighter
orgy called sunset.
.
but.
.
it’s not sunset,
it’s the time right after,
the sweet afterglow like
tonight the sun fucked
the sky just right
and
now she can do nothing
but emanate
pleasure,
blushing glorious
rubescent shades,
awe-striking all
who lay eyes upon her.
.
I was spiralling for
a minute there,
lost my footing,
it tends to happen when
I forget who I am—
not the fallible human
who trips over
her own feet,
but the sacred vessel
through which
divinity flows.
.
There’s this book where
the girl asks the boy what
his biggest fear is,
and he answers:
“oblivion”,
.
and I think that’s mine too.
it happens sometimes,
an inner eclipse,
like who the fuck I am
escapes me.
how is that?
when my memories are
etched into my brain so
photographically,
.
that I could draw you
the exact position
of the sun above him,
feel the way the September
air iced my neck,
taste the bitter
on my lips,
on the very
moment
love left
his eyes.
11:42AM UTC -9
.
I always remember
yet here I go again,
forgetting again,
and then forgetting
that I forgot.
.
you know how it is.
.
but
it’s a terrible thing,
forgetting,
and I simply
don’t have the time.
so self,
with love,
get your notepad out,
you’re going to want
to jot this one down
for the next time
that elephant
called doubt
sits on your chest:
.
BITCH, YOU ARE INFINITE.
.
on a seemingly
unrelated but totally
related note,
unpopular opinion:
air conditioning is an
oppression mechanism.
the more boxed
air I breathe,
the more I
forget.
.
the further my feet
from the mud,
the more I
forget.
.
the less I see her,
the more I
forget.
.
but with her,
I always
remember.
.
last time,
she sent her wolves
down the street
to howl at a full moon.
so I could
remember.
.
another time,
she sprinkled
bioluminescence
in ocean waves.
so I could
remember.
.
this time,
she oil-painted
the sky my favourite
shades of neon.
so I could
remember.
.
so many times
I’ve forgotten,
dabbled
in that smallness
that pretends
to be humility,
shackled by
the fragility
of this mere humanity
but she always
pulls up a chair,
and patiently as ever,
says:
“darling, it's safe to
remember.”
.
and the trees,
and the breeze,
and the glittering
waves both when they’re
rough and when they’re placid,
whisper in God’s voice:
.
“BITCH, YOU ARE INFINITE.”
.
And maybe when I say God,
you think of
a bearded white man in the sky
but
when I say God,
I mean the only God I see--
I mean the very Earth beneath my feet,
my sweet, gentle caregiver
who will slap a bitch if need be,
the one who cuts
through all the noise
and brings me back to me.
when I fly off in all directions,
gravity tugs on my feet
and the Earth, in
all her glory,
this place that I call home,
well she rocks me
like the mother she is
and whispers:
.
“BITCH, YOU ARE INFINITE.”
About the Creator
Dré Pontbriand
Writer. Alchemist. Freedom Enthusiast.⁂
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