begrudgingly falling headfirst into love

positivity is a stern guide dragging me across the floor by my arm

and i am deadweight refusing to look your way

simultaneously, there is no refusal on my part

you are worse than heroin

you are worse than cocaine

if you are good for me, why do you hijack my brain?

all my logic, all my senses

completely down the drain

stupidly pessimistic

and i wish i could concentrate

i won’t let myself let you go this time

i don’t care what it takes

i won’t let my silly self sabotaging brain

have an assist in making this dissipate

i’ll do all the hard work because i know

deep down maybe you feel the same

we don’t say the words but it’s written in the areas that are gray

and i can say i trust you without speaking in vain

we have a second try so try i will

im just stringing words together

hoping one day i can say this to your face

because you are my favorite, still

-g.m.t.