Cynthia finally caught up to me
We were playing tortoise and the hare.
I said happiness is a virtue
and she said I'll meet you there.
My abuse finally caught up to me.
Now I shake in my sleep.
I refuse to let another man touch me.
Protection from a pain repeat.
Hear me out
I was finally put in first place.
So I took a rest
I met Jealousy, Envy, Love, Lust, Infatuation
Even if I didn't dress nice
they still talked to me on certain occasions.
Nice guys finish last
but leave a lasting impression
No one understood how
I was suffering from Depression
Now we're on the front line
with knives in my back
I receive a standing ovation
and the ones who stabbed me
want to have conversations.
No one cares until you're drowning in your own tears
But even then they don't want to swim.
Never was I holier than yall because
I still found time to sin.
but I have to grow thicker skin
I had to get bulletproof
so the outside can't alter within.
Cynthia finally reached the finish line with me
My abuse finally said
"Stop running from me"
Now I sit and reminisce
healing would be a painful bliss.