adhd paralysis

I lay on my bed screaming silently

Help me

Someone help me

Please

So quietly only my cats can hear me

I'm so sorry I say to them

I don’t mean to upset you

I’m just stuck

I wish you could help me

I wish I could help myself

I lay there until I am shaking from hunger

I have no energy left and I'm afraid I'll faint

I have too much to do to faint right now

I feel so frozen

Locked in an invisible box

I can’t see it

But I feel it...

It’s so small

The size of a couch

I order in food again today

It’s all I can do to stay alive

I feel so lazy...

But I know the truth

I’m trapped inside my brain