Abstruse

You may not know...

I am a proud mother

Of two amazing human beings

I’m also a passionate lover

My tribe always bringing new teachings

You may not know

But here goes...

I am often full of anxiety

But also extreme love

I like me, finally

But not nearly enough

I am thirty four

And have no direction

It’s becoming hard to ignore

Weighted by my imperfections

I’m grateful for all I’ve underwent

But damn it I am aging terribly

Not how I saw my life being spent

Ultimately recovering mentally

You may not know

I’ll show you though...

I’m really fucking strong

With no follow through

Many struggles lifelong

But never misconstrue

I am loyal and devoted

Reliable and timely

My heart has eroded

Jaded, but only slightly

If I had to define me

I’d like for you to understand

I wish I tried harder

To show you who I am

You may not know

Who I am really

But I’d like to grow

Presenting me fiercely