A Rose for My Mother
To my mother, whose sufferings have grown larger than her happiness.
I walk through a garden full of thorn and
sufferings,
pains,
bitterness,
hatred,
trying to find a rose for my mother.
I sometimes wonder
how can life offers so little and yet,
my mother can offer so much.
They should have given out medals for all mothers:
There's no argument against that, although I don't know who they are.
Perhaps they are the Gods and Goddesses that I seldom see;
or perhaps they are someone - anyone, really - who
has the power to stop the suffering of this world.
I walked through a garden full of thorn and
sufferings,
pains,
bitterness,
hatred,
yet there were no roses beautiful enough
to offer my mother as a present.
A present that not so much a thank you, but more of an apology.
Mother, I didn't mean to be born with mental illness, really -
and in the darkest of times, I wished I hadn't been born at all.
Yet the love in your eyes and the tears shine from your broken heart
pick me up and pull me through.
And father is as old
and broken as we all are.
Mother, I see you there,
your back to my face as you race through the sweltering street
just because you don't want to see me "sad" or
"depressed" or
whatever fancy terms people used to describe
this unfathomable melancholy.
I see you there as I walk through a garden full of thorn,
and mother, though there are no roses grown in these gardens,
I will build you a kingdom full of your favorite roses.
With these bare hands, I will use the rest of my life
and the next
and the next
and the next
forever on and on
to build you a garden full of roses
where the flowers bloom all seasons and the thorn -
yes, the thorns will always be there -
but they will cut me instead of you.
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