A Memory of a Daydream

Last night I lived in a

Memory of a daydream

You handed me spontaneity

And because it was

Your hands holding it

I cradled it against

My chest

(The beating wasn’t as fast

As it was in my imagination)

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Every time I caught you

Looking at me you were smiling and

Although it made me remember

Why I loved you back then

It wasn’t enough to make

Me love you now

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I skipped under the stars

And asked you the questions

I’d wondered years ago and

You thought it was the alcohol

But really it was just the

Liberty of not caring

(You never saw me

That way before)

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Midnight slipped past us

In a way that made the night

Seem so much shorter than

It should’ve been

Although you’d never admit it

I knew you craved my nearness

More than you wanted any of

The experiences you told me

You’d had in the years since

You tried to push me away

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Confessions spilt from our lips

Like shots from crazier nights

But I reminded you of what

I no longer meant and you

Accidentally said what

You still couldn’t stop

Yourself from feeling

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You showed me the

Kind of carelessness

I’d imagined you

Clothing me in

Back before I

Showed it to myself

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Public places in

Deserted hours

Childish playfulness

And shameless teasing

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I cared too early and

You cared too late

Maybe neither of us

Are to blame after all

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This is a belated epilogue

A moment stolen from time itself

It’s what I wanted then

But not what I need now

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I’m sorry

For being your right person

But never at the right time

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