A Letter to Remind Myself

The Longer I live the more I realize,

that my life isn't as I deemed it to be.

My teenage years have been filled,

with a sense of false self-control,

and as I see it come to a close,

no longer a child in the eyes of the law,

but a child in the eyes of my father,

it dawns on me that I can't live my life,

like I've got it all figured out,

simply (or not so simply) because,

I've built for myself a world of false perspective,

and when I think I've got it all figured out,

I realize, I really don't.

The pressure begins to build,

The walls begin to crumble and as I question,

whether or not this is "it",

I take a step back, reflect,

close my eyes and listen to a still small voice in the distance of my heart,

telling me that it's all over now,

I can let go of the false, picture perfect certainty.

I don't have to box myself in

for I've got a God that is in control.

I do not have to be lost like this world.

When I'm with Him,

I find myself .