11/17/19 10:37 PM

Earth and water

11/17/19 10:37 PM

she thinks her feet

are planted in the soil

roots as old as hundreds of years

but when it rains it pours

and the water floods

giving venus its full attention

and nobody stops to think

that she wanted to say no

but the validation made

her whole

life

matter.

she reads words

that she refuses to confess to writing

and when she hears them

she cringes

because the pain

is easier to imagine

than to feel.

the devastation nurtures her soil -

just for a second -

from barren to fertile

instilling a confidence

that outweighs

her looming fear of commitment

to not just the words

but the men

and the job

and the social life

and the hair

this flood is so fucking catastrophic

it drives her to drink

and be the woman that

they want her to be

not just beautiful

but angry

she thinks her feet

are planted in the soil

roots as old as hundreds of years

and when it rains it fucking pours

but one day she’ll bury those demons

right where she stood

and the casket won’t float away in the flood

she’ll rip those roots out the fucking ground

and finally get to swim away -

here’s to better days.

slam poetry
Jessika Lazala
Jessika Lazala
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Jessika Lazala

Jessika Lazala is a teacher and writer from Springfield, MA. Her writing is motivated by trauma, love and loss.

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