100 Cups of Tea
Part One: She is made of sad songs -That's me
Somewhere
Out in the world
A woman
Is at home
Cooking
A homemade meal
And it smells so good
She is falling
In love
With the vegetables
And it is making her forget
About the love
Missing
In her
Own marriage -Forget what’s missing
Love between cracks and in the low places -Walking
What can I do?
Stay frustrated?
Resentful?
Sad?
At my existence
Not feeling like I exist
Or just exist like this?
In any moment
Maybe with eyes closed
Through the more painful
Till it’s easier
But I’m not even
Sure it’s all real -Exist Part One
You’re so naked
That I can see
All the bends
All the ways
You are
When you can’t hide
Anymore -Bare Branches
I just want to be
A dull brown
And fade into
The background
But for some reason
I keep trying
To be a pop of pink -Pink Love
I see broken hearts
In glances
My stomach turns -Responsibility
Teary eyed
And nowhere
To go
But my imagination -At least
Someone that will love them as much as I do -Solo Parenting
Sometimes I feel like it’s a race to win someone’s heart. -At least for them
Why won't the world
Slow down
Head
Stop
Spinning
So,
I can watch you
A while longer -I want to be here
I want to hang my tired branches
Always sore
Like my body
Is rejecting
This planet
Where my cells
Don’t belong
Not the right kind of love -Willow trees
I just want to feel
My pain
For one
More night
Because
Tomorrow
I need
To be
Ok again
I need to be bright -My time
The connection
Is not enough
Feels like
I’m wired wrong
I’ve been
Working on myself
Even though
I’m enough -Faulty wiring
My soft pink thought exploded in real life -I’m a dreamer
Sometimes
I look down
At my body
And
I wonder
If anyone
Will ever
Stroke my thighs
Cup my tired breasts
With their hands
Kiss my neck
The way I like
Ever? -Why not me?
Evening walks in the dark cool sad thoughts. -That’s something
He wanted to make love
With the lights off
I was pushed
To learn to love
What I see
It could take my whole life
When you have
Tiny hurting hearts
Looking
At you
What feels like all the time
There aren’t enough minutes
In the day
To cry -Wasted beauty
I want you to see
Her beauty
Behind the scenes
It tears me apart
To see it
Go unnoticed -Photograph of a mom
I am begging
The floor
To just keep holding me
Up
Because
If I go
Under
There is no one
I trust
With their hearts
Already hurting
Three minds
Three hearts
To keep
Afloat
But
I want the job
There is no one
I trust -No one
Naked
Behind bars
And waiting -At least I choose to be real
No one showed up
It keeps
Hurting
I don’t know
Where to start
So,
I make a cup of tea -Tea hug
About the Creator
Leah Legault
Prefer to speak in poetry/I speak for women, moms, single moms, children, and anyone who feels like it's so hard to be here at times//Developmental Service Worker/ For inclusion/Love brains that works in different ways/Women's Healing Arts
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