Why am I here? That is the question.
I honestly don't know. I don't know what life is. I've only been here for nearly 20 years and I still don't know the true meaning of why am I here. Ever since I was here, I've gone through many challenges. I don't know what life takes me nor I know what to do with my life. I have many things to go for, but nothing seems to work out for me.
When I was seven, I was introduced to story writing. I fell in love with it because I can write anything I want on paper. From fantasies to a fictional world, I can write what I see in my reality.
I indulge myself in story writing. I've written a lot of stories. I made up a lot of stories when I was young. I always explore the fictional world I have created and usually get lost from it. Sometimes I see the truth of it, and rarely, my world makes predictions.
However, sometimes the world isn't as what you see. There was violence, drama, war, and corruption. The world isn't a perfect world. We aren't perfect. There was more corruption than it is free.
The other question I ask myself is this: who am I?
I know who I am. But I don't know what my true self is. My passion is based on art and science. My first passion would be in the science field, specifically in space. Unfortunately, I didn't have the requirements to pursue the astronomical field or anything involving the science field. So I decided to re-route my path and pursue my dream of being a creator, whether making short stories or creating videos. I'm still trying my best to do something I would love to do.
Why did I choose this path?
Because I wanted to try making something that represents me. I'm not a fan of something based on smarts or strength. I do not want to pursue a business career because I didn't like communicating with a lot of people. And something that involves politics and history...I do not have the passion for them.
The real reason as to why I wanted to pursue my dream to become a creator is because of my childhood self. I make random videos and stories all the time. My second passion is to become a performer, but it may not happen for a while.
I'm currently in college studying media design, pursuing the dream of becoming a creator. I'm not sure about handling life yet considering that I faced a bunch of battles between myself and mental health for several years. I tried my best to pursue this dream, but it always comes at a cost. I always doubt myself, but at least some people that I've met throughout the years have been supporting me.
So, my question I keep asking myself; why am I here?
To bring joy to others. To bring a community together. To inspire people to not give up on their dreams. I always wanted to bring happiness to people, but I never got a chance to say anything to them. I'm introverted; I never like talking to people about my feelings. I don't know what to say to them, especially something that triggers my past.
I never had a good life nor had a bad life. I have some ups, and I have some downs. Story writing copes my sadness. It copes my anger and makes me feel better sometimes. I even think about what I wanted to write about next. The world's a scary place sometimes. But at least you have something to cope with.
So again; why am I here and who am I? I'm still asking myself. My life is still not complete. I need to find my true self before I lost myself.
About the Creator
Mica Chau
Creating stories is my passion, whether real experiences or not. I'm also a fan of music, passionate on creating videos and a media design student.
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