Let’s talk..

I had been debating on making a Vocal account for a while now. For years it seemed like I had been ‘’debating’’ alot of things..

Starting with my career.

(I thought about taking my time in posting this but..screw it. I wanna get these feelings out. So if you decide to stick around even if this post might be a mess- thank you.)

For a while I swore that psychology was what I wanted. Even hearing the people around me praising me for it, swearing that it was what I was meant to do, when in reality I was going for it because I thought ‘’well.. I play armchair therapist to the people around me who can‘t seem to get their own lives together so..may as well get paid for it. Right?’’

Now, don‘t get me wrong, I love psychology. I definitely think that looking into how the human mind operates is very interesting. But, it wasn’t what I wanted to do for the rest of my life. And I’ve never been a people pleaser, or so I thought.

But for some reason, the more encouragement I got from the people around me who- lets be honest, were just using me as a therapist and sucking the life out of me, the more I thought ‘’yep. This is definitely for me.’’

But this year something changed. I’m not sure what changed but, I finally decided that psychology wasn’t what fulfilled me. I don‘t see myself doing it 15 years down the line, or 10, or even 5 years down the line. And it’s not the only thing I enjoy and that I’m good at.

My real passion is writing. Thinking of how reading has helped me open up my imagination, and to mentally escape situations that I saw no end to, makes me want to be that outlet for someone else. And sure, making it into a sustainable career would be a nice bonus.

This year I decided to bite the bullet, fight my anxious thoughts and sign up for a Bachelor’s program in Creative Writing and English.

I won’t lie, I’m a little intimidating. All it takes is getting critique from someone more experienced than you, and it definitely bursts your bubble.

I don’t think I’m amazing at writing necessarily. But I believe I’m good enough.

And I love it. And I’m ready to soak up all there is to learn about it.

If you’ve read this far, thank you so much.

xoxo, Gigi.