It's about time you get to work

Will my tears run true. May they glide down a broken face, catching rugged as they flow, blinding the eyes of time, wetting the page as they fall, almost as if to wash away the very heavy and the foul.

Unbelievable sadness. A cathartic process. Bearable pain. Overwhelmingly so, in every ounce of being, in every cell a tarnished, destroyed, torn sense of understanding.

Scarcity, far from emptiness.

Rage, far from impatience.

Solitude, far from lonely.

You see, I break the day and it breaks me. Internal hardship, that is our battle, and we have been forgiven this test of time. Unapologetically. You see, without a global challenge to overcome, without a mission or deeper, meaningful quest in life, our faith begins to dry out and we turn sour, stale and stagnant. Flowing water never turns foul.

One question I have for you , do you even want to heal? Of course you do, it's just sometimes we are too blind to realize the truth. Think about it this way, why do you go about with all this distraction, putting up all this resistance? If you want to heal, hurry up and heal already.

Get about your work, start using your resources. You were okay this time around, weren't you? Why would it be any different now. You are the same person, you are the same problems, until you put an end to them.

There is not a lot of sense in the world, not of the kind that heals a broken soul. But can a soul even break in the first place? Maybe when the sacred is lost, when that special quality has been removed and your existence is a shell, a hollow vessel, an empty cup.

We still sit the same, our change in construct is an illusion. Now is your time to get to work, to stop your suffering to relinquish your demons, to slay the dragon and become the hero.

Now is your time to put to use the suffering you have already endured, the torment from past lives, the pain from past pains left unattended. The ones that define you, the ones that strengthen your soul, the moments in your life that helped you realize what you are made out of.

"Why do dragons hoard gold? Because the things you most need is always to be found where you least want to look" - Jordan Peterson

You are capable of tremendous feats of perseverance, patience, forgiveness and compassion. You are capable of whatever you put your mind to, your focus. But you must start by being straight with yourself. Will you let this be the end, or at least the beginning of the end?

This choice, to embark upon this heroes journey, a mission or quest if you will, is one that will last a lifetime, and one that you will only get better at as you progress along your journey. So begin already, and allow the hands of fate to shape you as they already planned on doing. Allow them to carve you from the rock in which you came, and show you that although this path is a rocky one, filled with bumps and potholes and beggars and thieves, it is also one of beauty and unconditional love.

“In the end we are the sum total of our doings and we will be faced by those doings at the moment of our death. Or is it our death in every moment that we live that faces us with what we do?” ― Lujan Matus