Anxiety Sleeper

Sleep , sleep is something I hardly EVER get . I think of myself as a vampire up all day but I barely sleep at night . It’s amazing how my body still manages to keep going even when it quite literally has no gas in the tank . Anxiety has been my biggest problem to why I can’t sleep , I tend to think of all my life stress at night , bills , the baby I have on the way , my dads personal addictions that have effected my family so much . I guess I lay at night feeling alone and empty and that causes me to stay up . My mind is a wonderland of emotions that sometimes has more control of me and the outcome is a never ending thinking and no sleep .

You may ask yourself where he’s going with this but that’s the beauty of it as I write this im just going of the first things that come to mind and of course it’s 11pm . I should be asleep because I work at 6am , but yet im still here writing this story . This year I’d love to take control of my emotions and anxiety again . I want to be who I was long ago . I miss my 8 hour sleeping nights , now I hardely get 6. I want to change my whole mental health state and help others if I was in the position to . Life is crazy and we do make crazy goals like becoming millionaires, but you see that’s not important . What’s Important is having a healthy mind and.body , good family around , sleep , and lots of water . That is another thing I would like to drink more water , I feel I drink to much soda that probably doesn’t help me going to sleep . I just want to get good rest be healthy and be here for my child and I think not stressing about the little things in life can really help because like I said I tend to think a lot at night time when I’m alone in my bed . I know I should just close my eyes but something keeps popping in my head to make me not sleep wether it’s my job , family , or financial . Usually it’s money problems isn’t that what it is for everyone ? . I want to uplift my soul this year and be a better person for everyone including myself . I don’t ask for anything outrageous this year or any crazy goals . I just want peace and love and a little bit of sleep , please ! . :)

I know I can achieve all this by staying true to a healthy routine and being dedicated to what I say I’m going to do . Writing this story is helping me even do it and I hope it helps whoever reads this . That if you stress or have anxiety daily your not alone . So I’m conclusion this year my goal is to : sleep well , stop overthinking and stressing , be kinder , and drink lots of water ! . I think as humans we should all try to do this as it really will help us all in being productive in life and live long . I vow to try my best to achieve all these things because I want to live a happy healthy fulfilling life and I hope you do too because without that what do we really have . Thanks for reading and I hope you make some sense of my crazy life !